welcome back, traveler. the new sanctum is under construction. i am not even sure if there are any travelers to welcome back but that's not important. the real ones will find their way back. for now, all you have to know is that this sanctum will probably be very similar to the previous one on a surface level but will be vastly different under the hood. the style of content posted on here will probably stay the same although i do have some new projects i want to implement in the future. with that said, congratulations for having reached the 3rd window i've opened into my mind. like i said on the last iteration, all of the content that was on the first one is completely wiped out and only lives on as a memory in my head or anyone who came accross it. i have not decided what i will do with the 2nd iteration yet but i will most likely force the same fate upon it as the last one (the delete button is looking very appealing right now). windows are closed as easily as they are opened. i guess it might be sad or disappointing for some people to know all the work that i've put into it might be gone overnight but that is just how i operate. that should be everyting for this first entry. oh, before heading off, i did want to implement something new. a date system, i think it's something that was missing in the previous iterations. so yeah, here's the date as of writing this: 1/26/2026. fuck, i guess this is really becoming more and more like a diary lmao.

one last thing actually, this time i found a way to make the github repo private and still be able to host the website for free. we shouldn't be receiving any guests who haven't made a great effort to find this place. it might be a bad idea in the long run because it might be too hard to find now but i dont really mind right now. since i'm still building this place from the ground up and is far from being finished, not having guests right now isn't that big of a deal for me. those who've been here before will also know that staying alone for long periods of time doesnt bother me too much. although, i have to be honest, i am very curious to see how people from different circles of my life would mix together. perhaps i could eventually sow seeds in those places and see what it leads to. that might not be a good idea though, something i've always enjoyed from the sanctum is the disconnect between you and me. we have no ties, no interactions. you do not know me by name or username, same goes for you. i am your host, you are my guest. that's only way we're defined in this place. bringing in people who know me on a more personal level (i know, very paradoxical since those who have been here from the start know way more about me. but i meant it in a way that they can tie me to a person, an entity, to a name, to a username. something you cannot do if you've only been a guest at my sanctums.) might ruin their perspective of me. not that i care that much, it's mostly that i do not want to run the risk of having this very personal place exposed to social circles i dislike. regardless, i will still think about it. i might just leave a tiny breadcrumb trail for now since this place hasn't been fleshed out yet. date: 1/26/2026

vscode took the liberty to edit that last message. i dont know exactly what was changed but just be aware. date:1/26/2026

i want to expand more on a few ideas i have for this iteration. firstly, there's the reclaiming of my body. those who've been here on a previous iteration will know what im talking about. i havent decided yet how im going to portray it but you can probably expect something soon enough. i would be lying if i said im perfectly fine with it. it makes me extremely nervous in reality. i have a few good ideas but im still very hesitant. i suppose its a normal thing. after what was done to me, ive never felt a moment that i havent absolutely despised my flesh, my physical vessel. i suppose the impact it had on my life, psyche, way of thinking, my whole being, is what makes it so stressful to me. i do think it's necessary though. i'm not sure how i will proceed yet but i might publish the results in a not so visible page. it's only fair that a large place such as this sanctum has its secret rooms afterall. perhaps those of you who truly care will find it, who knows. if you are able to find, then i suppose that means you care enough about me. perhaps i will even invite people myself into said secret room. who knows. or i might get drunk one night and reveal this place to someone by accident like i almost did a few months ago. that would be very funny in hindsight. i wonder what they would make of it. perhaps it will bring out the worse in themselves. when you show yourself to be vulnerable, some people can make it out easily. it's as if hurting people and preying on people was in their nature. almost as if they had an instinct for it. who cares in the end. i aware of the risk of allowing guests in my sanctum. date:1/26/2026

i just realized i only talked about one project in the last entry lmao, i got carried away. regardless, other things i would like to display here would be movie/tv show reviews. i might even link my new letterboxd account if im feeling especially retarded. i would also like to show off my dragons here. i recently made a dragoncave account and thought this place would be a good place to host them. it might also serve as a way to track who actually stumbles into the place since i dont plan to advertise my eggs on any of their forums or hatcheries. speaking of keeping track of people who come across this place, i would like to implement a way for travelers to leave their mark here if they so please. im sure i can probably make something up for that eventually. what's possible with computers hasn't ceased to amaze me during the course of my entire life. date:1/26/2026

i think i will also probably post more images than on the last two iterations. i do like writing down what goes through my mind at the moment but i think images would be a good visual support. might make for some good memories when i inevitably chose to close down this place and read through everything for one last time. you can expect chatlogs, screenshots, art, completely random images, anything really. for chatlogs and stuff, i will probably censor usernames since that would make it too easy to come into contact with me but i will probably leave the profile pictures. i would be impressed if someone actually managed to track down one of my accounts with profile pictures alone. i think at that point you would have earned the merit to come into direct contact with me. date:1/26/2026

wowie, i really lost the habit of writing here. just got done indenting everything correctly in the code. will probably write more in a little bit. i think im giong to start adding time as well as dates because i feel like it. date: 12:12 AM, 2/6/2026

fell asleep, whoopsies. but anyways heres whats new. first off well i found a way to write from my phone, which is what im currently doing. probably going to be a bit easier to remember to write now lmao. makes it way more convenient because i usually spend a bit of time doing nothing on my phone before falling asleep and right after waking up and thought to use this time to write like im doing right now. date: 8:40 AM, 2/6/2026

forgot to talk about a few other things in the last message. biggest development since last time id say would be concerning the reclaimation. ive worked a bunch on it, its almost finished as a matter of fact. so what i ended up going with was a blurred photo and i added a few other elements like stars and such. ill probably also nd up altering the colors, perhaps make it black and white. idk entirely yet. little random fun fact: i talked about reclaimation in an art discussion with a few strangers and may or may not have slipped and gave too much detail about this place but whatever. i dont really know the person who probably saw it but they seemed nice enough. theres a small chance that two other people saw it too but i know them better, one im a bit worried about but i think the other is fine. i did talk about the reclaiming with them though, explained the concept a bit without getting into the details of course but yeah. it seemed like they understood mostly and thought it was cool. anyways im still like half asleep so im going to stop wrtiting here before i fall asleep withoit having the chance to save this kessage. alsmog happened twice now lmao. date: 8:58 AM, 2/6/2026

aughhh... ive been lazy, haven't worked on this very much lately. did some code clean up today but thats about it, idk what to talk about apart from that. date: 2:20 PM, 2/21/2026

i lied. i have stuff to talk about but i just dont feel like it. i have a tummy ache and i told people id play a game with them soon so yeah. date: 2:24 PM, 2/21/2026